So October half term is always a weird one. It’s a time of change at the moment. My ucas has been sent and I’m nervously awaiting (fingers crossed) offers. I’ve applied to study Psychology at at Nottingham, Manchester, East Anglia, Sheffield and Oxford Brookes. I so so want Nottingham but I could be dreaming. I’d love to go to Manchester as it looks such a great city. People have already received offers which has shocked but excited me. This half term has been pretty full on, I went to a party in Pwehilli at the weekend which was an experience. I then saw Matt on monday who came over for cuddles, monopoly and a chat. Still feel exactly the same as I did two years ago which I find very scary. 5 years ago he asked me out and gave me a bracelet. 2 years ago we started our ‘thing’ on halloween. Ugh. Monday he came over we kissed and I found the braclet for him. He has the most bizzare hold on me. But I know hes texting/meeting (birdin) in his words another girl so I’m keeping my distance.
Tuesday I had a Spa day with my Mum which was beyond relaxing, we had a lovely lunch and dip in various jacuzzis etc. I feel asleep and came home so tired.
Today I woke up feeling liked I’d been drugged, I was so tired. But had a driving lesson which was good. Ellie my best friend passed her driving test and my friend Vicki has had two uni offers. I feel like I’m not progressing much in life compared to others. But on Friday I have a job interview for Wallis which I got through the help of fantastic Ellie. I so so need it. For money and confidence reasons.
Tonight I have been invited to a friends but it’s such a hassle to get there and I want to plough on with schoolwork. Tommorow I am possibly going to my best friends mum’s 50th lunch. Then Friday then interview and hopefully a haircut. The weekend involves a visit from Caitlin, Ali and Marnie which is exciting. I hope I have some uni feedback by the end of this week but who knows.
Then the next half term I need to seriously get my head down as I feel im slacking. I have three exams in January Psychology, Sociology and an English re-take. So serious revish will go down if im going to get AAB.
I have no real plan B if the uni thing doesn’t go to plan. Travel possibly? A third year at college just couldn’t be an option. But I believe everything happens for a reason so we shall see. Next month I turn 18 which is craaaazy stuff. I can’t wait to be legal to drink!! I think that’s it for now on the life update, this is very theraputic.
"I could live there all alone, she thought, slowing the car to look down the winding garden path to the small blue front door with, perfectly, a white cat on the step. No one would ever find me there, either, behind all those roses, and just to make sure I would plant oleanders by the road. I will light a fire in the cool evenings and toast apples at my own hearth. I will raise white cats and sew white curtains for the windows and sometimes come out of my door to go to the store to buy cinnamon and tea and thread. People will come to me to have their fortunes told, and I will brew love potions for sad maidens; I will have a robin…"
Shirley Jackson (via preparedness-)
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
Marilyn Monroe (via alifeofillusions)
"I’m sure when I have a nostalgic, teary moment in 10 years time, I’ll try to put the glasses when I was 10 on and cry to myself in front of the mirror."
Daniel Radcliffe (via acciopond)
"Closing your eyes isn’t going to change anything. Nothing’s going to disappear just because you can’t see what’s going on. In fact, things will even be worse the next time you open your eyes. That’s the kind of world we live in. Keep your eyes wide open. Only a coward closes his eyes. Closing your eyes and plugging up your ears won’t make time stand still."
Haruki Murakami (via cavum)
Thank you, Harry. For everything.